It's just so tough to have to let go of something you've always wanted to hold on dearly to for a long while, my heart bleeds... but do i have a choice?
Gotta admit it now, im just not good with girls. All the girls i've ever fallen for always end up falling for somebody else... why is it so? Is that because im no good-looking enough, is it because of my hairdo, or is it because my results aren't good enough? Tell me, somebody tell me about it.
I really don't know because the guys whom they fell for, some are (not being arrogant or what) not even half as good-looking as i am, nor have got results that are even half as good as mine, and as for the hairdo, fine, maybe i should change it =S So, is it the hairdo? But hey, there are those who've got hairdos worse than mine too! So nothing in the list applies... what does it boil down to? I dunno...

Maybe i'll just listen to Qing Tian for another few days, just like i used to when i felt real down, bogged down by relationship matters, when everything in that area just seemed real hopeless. The ol' song...

Gua feng zhe tian, wo shi guo wo zhe ni shou. Dang pian pian, yu jian jian, da dao wo kan ni bu jian.

So i guess it all comes down to one fact now: I'm not a ladies' man; im hopeless with girls.
Having fallen in with someone is tough, letting go is even tougher, but if you don't let go, you end up suffering more... that is, unless things turn around (of which is nearly inapplicable in my case).

Hai yao duo jiu, wo cai neng zhai ni sheng bian; deng dai feng qing de na tian ye xu wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian.

Sigh, maybe after i wake up, i'll just forget everything. Damn, im talking like an adult though im just an immature kid.