A few months ago it was my maternal grandmother, and just last week it was my paternal grandfather. Everybody's leaving so quickly nowadays that the nights we spent celebrating their birthdays last year seemed like just a dream.
You know, at my grandfather's wake, it was the first time in 20 years that I've ever seen my dad cry, it nearly made me cry too - considering im pretty darn cold-hearted these days. It also made me think, had it been my dad, then one of my greatest regret in this world would be not having told him myself how much I loved him, and how thankful I am for all the things he has done for me and the family, how he toiled so hard to support our extravragant expenses (especially my brother's and mine). Still, i couldnt find the courage to tell my dad, for whenever i felt like doing so, i'd think "this sounds so stupid, forget it...". I guess this is one of the greatest drawback of being a taciturn, an introvert - it's not being unable to confess to the girl whom you like and crap like that, but being unable to express your gratitude for your parents who raised and cared for you unconditionally. I just hope i make it big someday, not so much to have my revenge against people who looked down on me and stripped me of my chances anymore, but to give my parents a very comfortable life so that they need not slog any longer, they've slogged for long enough.

Anyways, I'll be doing my national service in 5 days time... so im grabbing every chance i can to lash my time out on computer games, especially Shining Force III!!! It's such a good game that everybody SHOULD play it, if you don't you really don't know what you're missing! I kinda prefered it if they made it non-linear like in Shining Force II though...it would feel more adventurous to explore the world by yourself =D But the story is way more intriguing than Shining Force II's, it has alot of twists and such, and not sudden unfounded ones like in Ninja Gaiden (Murai -_-"). Of course, the main reason for anyone to play Shining Force III would be... the BATTLE SYSTEM! Oh well, I'll get back to gaming, there's not much time left for me to do so at least until 3 weeks later.