Ok, i think i pissed Sue-Anne off again yesterday when i told her that she's got loads of attitude back then when we were on our fyp, which in turn pissed us all off, but this time i am NOT gonna apologize, no, not a chance in hell! She needed to reflect on that and i don't believe that i said the wrong thing, afterall i merely stated the truth. Now she's starting to give me the cold shoulder again, excluding me even from a project discussion and started work on it without any giving me any notification or seeking prior consultation from me... wow, thanks alot.

I've always thought that she's the best groupmate i could get in both classes, yes, even more valuable than Timothy but i guess i was wrong. While she still proves a valuable assets when it comes to display of skills, her attitude's changed vastly. Now, she's lazy, gives you the angry glare when you make even the slightest changes to plans, and enjoys shifting the blame to other people.
Crap, whatthehell, i know her status this year is different and tons of stuff has happened to her. She had my sympathy but after i had to tolerate all those attitude from her, i decided to retract it in the end, and hence i sort of told her off yesterday.

I made a mistake. Had i known that i would not be selected by whichever morons calling the shots about who gets to go MIT, i would've joined Timothy and his group, then i'd probably be a much happier, less tired person, not to mention that i'd also get to be in Australia developing software for games with them now, experiencing independent living overseas. I missed out on so much when i made the decision not to defer my IA to join their group when invited to join their group back then.

I guess this is life, make one mistake and you get a period filled with shit in time to come. One has to tread carefully in order not to end up in "deep shit", exercising extreme care when considering each and every option he/she was given at a certain point of time.

Then again, was she really the one who has changed, or has been always been me, knowing that i've become rather melancholic, extremely negative and sarcastic after the MIT incident. Who knows? But damn, i never thought i'd miss Timothy this much lol (don't the the wrong idea, i'm straight), i always wonder how i would've ended up joining him instead of forming my own group. Then i wouldnt have to see to the leader duties (which i realize i totally stink at) and neither would i have to take all those nonsense from Sue-Anne (not to mention the breaking-down friendship)... she would've remained a faithful and caring friend in my mind.

I've lost a good friend, but if that's the way she's gonna act from then on til' the day she passes, then i don't really care. Who needs a friend who gives you attitude all day long anyway? But if she suddenly reverts back to her former self, then i'll probably regret it but right now one thing's for sure, she's pissed me off so damn badly i don't even want to be anywhere near her, or even see her. Oh well, decisions.